Wednesday

so I practically the best procrastinator in the blogging industry. 
Anyway this is probably the worst way to start a post,  with a weird title altogether. 
so a tell all about my life currently. 
we have midsemester exams in school and I am in no way prepared for one of my monster papers INTERNATIONAL LAW!! which sounds as scary as it is in bold.  Anyway it's my first paper today so I am hoping that it will be AWESOMEEEE since I will binge read for it for the next 5 hours. 
then I have a whole relationship mental breakdown fiasco... where I don't really know what path I am meant to take or if indeed I am meant to take that path... plain confusion. 
then I have 'work' internship situations of life and death,  where I am practically working and doing over 1000 things at the same time and my employer employee relations can be said to be strained due to one to many misunderstandings and poor judgements, I am in no way going to say from what side. 
what else is happening, oh yeah my AIESEC conference is just a few weeks away and we are still experiencing major major assess of problems. 
positives is that my relationships yes relationships are good thus far...
more deets later..

THE SAM SMITH IN MY LIFE

the title of this post is mostly because Sam Smith is such an amazing person and his voice has a soul and spirit of its own.  he is basically an epitome of what love sounds like... at least sad love. My favourite track is Make it to me which I play almost every night before I slowly disappear into my world of dreams and fantasies.
the reason why I say this is because I feel that I have found love and love has found me... well I hope against all hope that it has. so far the world has accepted this fact.
I am so afraid of messing it up or being the one that breaks it because i wouldn't want to be the next person who finishes someone's heart... like am afraid to break it. 
Anyway love is secretive and fresh,  new and exciting,  as much as I want to explore and experience it,  my instinct prevents me from doing so. 
This will be a cherished one and different one.
against the odds
and especially because Make it to me is more than a song.